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That Escalated Quickly..

Well, hi there! i haven't written anything in a while so heres an update on how "crazy and exciting my life" has been.

Recently my friend and I ventured out to the mall to hunt for some new vintage band tees from Forever 21. On the way there we met another one of our friends. we thought it would be just a super smart idea to buy some pot and go smoke. Later on after being stoned at the mall, my friend's mom called telling her to get home because she was "totally busted". And what do you know, when i got home i got busted too (again). I felt so bad i let my impulsive self disobey an important rule. Now to the present, I'm grounded for 2 weeks and I did something this morning that i am NOT proud of.. at all. It has been quite a while since I have self harmed but today i slipped. I am so ashamed and i feel terrible for doing it so I'm going to promise myself it wont happen again.

Soo anyways, I'm doing ok and fiiiinalllyy, I am going to tell you guys who that special someone is I wrote about I'm my earlier post. He's so sweet and just perfect for me. It seems like we were meant to be best friends and hopefully something more in the future. Here's the moment you've all been waiting for, the big name! *Drumroll* Justin (: hmm well i guess it's not too exciting because those who go to Johnston Heights would already know this. But anyways, Justin is proboably the most supportive, caring guy I've ever met and i am so grateful that we are close (: Anyways there's my update for today and i'll write again soon.

Not Givin A Damn,

Alyssa

Good Morning❤️

The sun is out and I'm feeling surprisingly great aside from my foot that's still kinda sore. Today, my plans are to hang out with friends and eat icecream. Isn't that just perfect? It's especially perfect since it was supposed to be stormy out and it's sunnier than ever (: that just puts a big smile on my face! I hope everyone has a great day ❤️

Dazed and Confused,

Alyssa

Mixed Up Thoughts

Welcome to my first ever blog (: To start off, you might wonder why i wanted to start this blog. During leaving my friends and school in Kamloops, I've gone through some tough stuff, and of course its nice to talk to a friend about your feelings, which is what most teenage girls do. Yet, whenever i have something on my mind, i begin to write a letter in my head about it. The only way to stop that letter from repeating itself is to write it out. So here i am, writing out my deepest thoughts for you to read. If you haven't figured out by now, my blog title? Its almost complete sarcasm :P I would definitely not call my life exciting but it sure as hell can get crazy. At the moment, not so much. Im sitting at my desk in my pajamas, with smudged makeup and a possibly fractured foot, wondering if a certain somebody thinking about me. Hmm, you are probably wondering who that certain someone is, but you'll have to wait before i can tell you that ;) All i can say right now, is that they are absolutely amazing. He (yes its a guy.. Oooh details) can always put a smile on my face and is probably one of my most trusted friends. Honestly, I feel like i constantly think about him, and it scares me a little because what if its not the same for him, or what if i'm putting too much thought and effort into our friendship? He told me he has feelings for me but, there is a small problem.. My mother will not let me date until i'm "ready".  How is she supposed to even know that? Anyways, back onto what's going on now. My foot is killing me and I am so hungry i feel like eating my desk. Oh the sorrow. So hungry, yet all i have is stale cheerios and old ginger ale. Pretty nasty, right?  Geez I just get so off topic with things when i write, don't I? Nothing else is really popping into my head that i can write about so thanks for reading today, and i'm gonna go grab me some food.

Hungry and Bored,

Alyssa